My Identity

(This is not in chronological order, this happened before the previous post)

I have tried to be careful who I have told what about this whole process. Not because of shame, which has kept me secretive in the past, but to protect myself. I did however choose to share with a few people that I was going to have this meeting yesterday at a church that intimidated me, with a pastor who intimidated me. I got some advice about how to go into the meeting professional and armed with statistics, knowledge and ways to entice this church to give me what I want. This advice did not sit well with me at all. A matter of fact as soon as it was given to me I had a headache and had to take a nap :) The next day when I was thinking more clearly I realized why this bothered me. Those things are not me! This is not the way I have approached this project. This is the Lords, not mine! I reminded myself that I have only made two calls and the church with 6,000 attendees has kept communication open with me, not because of anything I have done. I was going to go into that meeting just being myself and know that if this was the plan God has it will happen, if not I surely don't have to fret about it, he will provide something different.

I shared this with Amy yesterday morning during our 6:30 am phone call ;) and she reminded me of David and Saul. Remember Saul tried to put his armor on David, but it did not fit. David walked in confidence that it was the Lords battle therefore he would have success. This totally resonates with me!

1 Samuel 17:

33 Saul replied, “You are not able to go out against this Philistine and fight him; you are only a young man, and he has been a warrior from his youth.”

38 Then Saul dressed David in his own tunic. He put a coat of armor on him and a bronze helmet on his head. 39 David fastened on his sword over the tunic and tried walking around, because he was not used to them.
“I cannot go in these,” he said to Saul, “because I am not used to them.” So he took them off. 40 Then he took his staff in his hand, chose five smooth stones from the stream, put them in the pouch of his shepherd’s bag and, with his sling in his hand, approached the Philistine.

47b for the battle is the LORD’s, and he will give all of you into our hands.”

AMEN!! I am proud to be like David!! I know who I am, I know this is not my specialty, but I am going to take what I am familiar with and know how to use and fight for the Lord!